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16/12/24
23:04
Excited & Unsatisfied
After school I went to pickup some packages, I rode my bike past a point where I used to sit and think while listening to music. At the same moment while passing the sun was shining wich was so nice, that moment reminded me of spring very much.
I got headphones finaly! They are from Skullcandy and were made in 2007, I bought them for like 6 euros. The fun fact is that the packaging was unopend, the headphones have been in there since 2007. So cool!!! Also the theme is like indian tribeish. It got some tomahawk on the side and fluffy ear/head pads! Really glad I finaly got headphones because the sound is so much beter then earbuds! If you want to see how they look you can go to my tumblr bc im too lazy to upload them here :3 .
15/12/24
22:41
Stressing & Thinking
I'm gonna start a cd collection probably haha, my bestfriend bought this radio/cd player and that encouraged me to also buy one (I have yet to receive it.) I bought a few cd's already, to start off with (I'm not going for bookshelves full ofcourse, but I might buy some cd's here and there. Just a decent normal collection.)
Last friday I wen to a record store with a school friend, it was so much fun looking trough the selection of cd's and exploring new artists. I bought 2 cd's, one of the Cure and one of Siouxsie and the Banshees. My friend bought 2 random cd's, a triphop album and a (skate)punk complication. We went to his house after and listened to the cd's wich was so cool and epic. Really something wich I would want to do again. The whole experience of the record store and having actual physical media is just so much better than being spoiled by streaming platforms like Spotify.
14/12/24
23:08
Tired & Satisfied
Hey guys gonna keep this short bc im so tired, went to germany with my dad today and it was really fun!! We talked about music the whole car ride and also listened to some. The city we were in was really nice and there was christmas decoration everywhere (I'll the pictures here tomorow.)
I bought some sewing suplies and decorations so I can make some cool modifications on my clothing!! Also found cool cd's in a random warehouse store wich was super suprising yet cool, found out about an awesome german poprock band through this (I'll also upload pictures of these under physical media tomorow!) Germany is so much beter then the netherlands tho, stores have actual thing you want and need, really handy.
Im gonna sleep now guys bye idk if I forgot to say anything but idc rn.
12/12/24
23:27
Refreshed, Reliefed & Happy
Im feeling pretty good again, im gonna focus on myself, I dont even know why I did this to myself. I'm feeling better. Less is more guys, never forget. But what do I know tho, I'm just a boy tryna make sense of life. I'm feeling hopefull for once. God may you relief me of the hardships in life, let me bloom for I have been longing for so long. I hope it will be the same as spring this year, everything back to normal ^-^.
ly all guys ♥♥ bye ♥♥.
11/12/24
23:16
Idk tbh
Today was pretty fun!! Had a short school day and then went to hangout with my bestfriend! Also picked up my new converse wich I bought for like 10 euros (THANKS VINTED), so now I have 2 pairs and I also picked up my jack skellington Disney Infinity figure!!
I am also fr thinking more and more about starting to use like a old cellphone instead of my smarthphone. Idk if I have the motivation to do so but I tought it would be cool and minimalistic to start using an older phone. Tbh my smartphone is starting to get to me really, especialy social media and expecting people to talk to me or something. Maybe I would be alot happier with a so called "dumbphone". I have yet to find a good one on vinted sadly but I hope I will get to buy one in the future. Maybe my life will become a whole less stressfull because the main thing that is bothering me is worrying about my connection with people or something idk...
Idk this will probably sound weird but when I wake up in the morning, I cant help to feel stressed or scared while booting up my phone, my heart racing and fucking almost pumping out of my chest to see if someone responded or if I got any new messages or notifications. Idk if anyone gets me it is pretty weird I do say so myself.
Gonna sleep now bye!
10/12/24
23:19
Longing & doubting
& a bit sick
You know what I really want or long for? A close friendgroup somewhere in a rural town bruh... In a pinewood area!!!!! You know those midwest emo bands??? Where all the members are close childhood friends living life like whatever? Swimming, band pratice, skateboarding, hanging out in the parking lot of the local convenience store... Things like that, no worries about if you are gonna be staying friends with them because you know its for life!! Something like the video clip from: Title Fight - "Head In The Ceiling Fan". I would murder someone to life in a area like that...
Dont get me wrong I know alot of people and I am like really grateful for the people that I am close with! I do hope I'll keep those people as best friends because I wouldnt know what to do without them. I love them but sometimes I am just a bit of a worry head :) .
9/12/24
22:41
Chill & somewhat tired
Just watched this short documentary about Hot topic and the timeline of the store, I was just so bored that I finaly decided to sit down and watch something. Old Hot topic just looked so much cooler, especialy in the 90s and 2000s. Such a shame that those stores change. There arent even any stores like that in the Netherlands, most stores dont really sell any alternative things bruh :( . Vinted is my best friend tho, im happy to be able to get some cool clothing there from time to time.
It would just be so much beter if there were cool stores like that here, also as like a meeting point for cool people. There are some people here that dress alternative wich is nice but yeah, to get in touch with them is hard and kinda akward out of nowhere... I know girls who have a really good taste in clothing, and there are also some girls at my school who dress cool. But I havent really seen a guy who dresses like that. Its like rare to see one who has a really unique and alternative style, I hope I dress cool tho because otherwise I would sound like a prick ha.
3/12/24
22:30
Good & A little weird
Hye guys I have been feeling better the last few days, I'm finaly making some progress I guess. Listing to more Midwest emo than Screamo has significantly improved my mood (wich probally sounds silly but still is true.) It also kinda gives me that spring nostlagia from this year, wich is nice but I hope that that feeling didnt come early and that I will still enjoy that feeling in the spring.
Something that I realized again today is that life has ups and downs, as the dutch people say: "Na regen komt zonneschijn" wich translates to "After rain comes sunshine." And I know that Dutch probably sounds weird to the one reading this and that the Netherlands kinda suck, but hey. This saying kinda is true.
And its not like I really have the right to complain, I mean people are starving and dying all around the world. but still I made/make my life so much harder then it should be, really my only worries are in my toughts/are my toughts wich sucks. But hey I should see every small step I make as a good one.
Value the small things in life, I know its hard when life is fast paced and you're caught up in things. But hey, its okay really... Just dont forget to take a deep breath and take some time for yourself.
I know it may seem impossible, but you will eventualy overcome your hardships in life, to the person reading this, wherever you are, whoever you are,YOU are stronger then you think and you deserve the best, know that people love you and that you deserve to be loved ♡♡♡ I'm gonna sleep, byee!
2/12/24
23:02
Relieved & Vague
Im gonna keep all my clothes that I have now so if I ever get children I can give them the cool clothing yes and then I'll pass on my swag and drip yk what I mean. And even if I dont have kids I will give it to my nephews or something I'm gonna force them to have drip!! And then I'll be the cool lonely and mysterious uncle who can show them pictures of me at their age and wow that would be so cool, I'll probaly have a drinking problem by then tho.
Bye guys was feeling silly im gonna slep!!!
1/12/24
08:44
Happy & Jolly
Guess what guys... ITS DECEMBER 1ST YIPIEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE.
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